life ab0ut tHe KiNg "†Ļēήňǻřď†™®

affected like hell

2009-08-22T18:36:00.002+08:00

really super affected by what i heard today from the people around me...
i went to school today for extra dnt lessons...
WHY IS IT HAPPENING NOW....AT THIS TIME.... :(
helped jack with his dnt doing google sketch up..
from 10-12...
when i was talking to jack today he told me what happened before i came...
i was really taken aback.......
dam hurt...
before i came mr kamar..
told the students not to follow me and stuff all the bad things la...
then when my friend asked abt asking me to do the google sketch up..
he just said i dont know how to do and i was trying to sabo everyone....
during the N leveel submission i stayed till 8 plus to help all the N level students...
i sacrificed my time just to help them i was the one few who bothered to stay back to help them.
and he said i was trying to sabo the N level students....
it really broke me....
he said that because he claimed that i was the one to cause one of his students to get 0 for one of her board.
it wasnt even my fault..i asked the girl 3 times to check if it was ok and then i printed for her...
rushed back to school and stayed back just to help her...
took to days to finish doing her product and this was wht he said...
i was completely torn apart...
i just wanted to cry....
and after we were leaving i asked one of my friend if i could borrow the school mouse.
i asked in a proper manner...
and he just gave me a stare till he entered the room...
then he asked my friend if i wanted to steal a mouse....
he said not to lend me anything at all....
he even accused me of stealing the 2 mouse and the pen for the com that we lost....
deep inside i m so disappoint:(...

WHY IS IT ALL HAPPENING TO ME...I"M NOT ALRIGHT....

:(

2009-08-18T21:28:00.002+08:00

i never told u how much i love you because words just cant describe the feelings i have for u...
i never told u how much i treasured the times we spent together even just by walking you home cos i wanna do it forever...
i never had so much emotions running through my mind...:(
i"M SO DEPRESSED:(
but you'll never know....
growing up hardly without any love...
then i met u...
you became my whole world....
you were like a friend to me...
why did u have to leave:(
i loved u so much...
i just cant stop thinkin abt you...
i cant stop the tears:(
i was true to u the whole time...
having u in my embrace just gave me the assurance that i was loved....
you never shared anything with me...you shared it with him instead...
when the rest told me i was like a toy to u...
i just broke down ...
deep inside cos i loved u so much....
its so painful to let go...
i think about u every night...
wondering how you feel and wht you were thinkin...
i wanna be there for u...
i dont wanna close my eyes...i dont wanna think about you..
i just wanna be alone now...
:(

2009-06-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

i feel neglected

2009-06-24T01:07:00.001+08:00

CHANGE OF PLANSSS

anway here's my schedule for the week...starbucks every single day please
22- dnt from 8.30-1 plus , then going out till late night
23-reatively free, valerie's birthday
24- dnt, jarens bday party
25-dnt, (lunch cancel)
26- family outing with daddy finally whole day
27-lunch at raffles town club wih daddy, church
28-dinner with friends

busy busy weezy

2009-06-22T00:08:00.003+08:00

GOSH....busy busy super weezy week starting NOW :)
somehow i love busy weeks...dont you?
it kindoff takess my mind off stuff and random thoughts...
at least i wont be a bummer anymore at home so i m DAM GLAD CAN...
isnt this good that at least for once its a dam colourful post?
anyway past week has been like a super awesome roller coaster ride...
was also dam busy but busy having tons and tons of fun under the SUN
I LIKE:) u like?
RAWRrrr i dont know why but i love clipping pegs at my lips....
the pain is dam sexy ..try it:)
anyway qite excited for my next run this coming friday...
expect it too be a breeze only 5 km...love the race pack...
i think this week will be heading to sentosa beach bar to slack again ...
and maybe starbucks to hardcore mug...:)

anway here's my schedule for the week...starbucks every single day please
22- dnt from 8.30-1 plus , then going out till late night
23-reatively free, valerie's birthday
24- dnt, jarens bday party
25-dnt, lunch with lynn
26- family outing with daddy finally whole day
27-lunch at raffles town club wih daddy, church
28-dinner with friends

anyway thing i'll update...:)
lennard

lovesssss

2009-06-18T01:05:00.006+08:00

i just love today:)
maybe its cos she's back today after a 1 week trip to london....
or perhaps its cos i went out with a bunch of supercool super heros:)
today was a fun packed explosive and exciting day for me::)
tired but yet satisfied ...
happy on the inside shining on the outside:)
tmr's gona be better:)
SENTOSA with the same bunch of cool people that rock my world:)
i cant wait to see her...
the excitement is building up...
anyway PHOTOS:)

..............

2009-06-07T13:05:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's your birthday....
i cant wait to see u again.....
but my presents are really bad....
i spent 4 days cut wood to make your name...
and now my school instructor threw it away...
i'd be lying to you if i said i did not care...
i put so much effort into it....
manually sand the wood until my skin came out...
nothing is going as i plan....
the present i got u never came...
i m really so disappointed.........
should i cancel it tomorrow?
i really wanna hand make u a super nice card...
i promised u i'd would blow you away...
seem like now its just all talk huh....
this sucks....i hate it....i hate where i m now
i hate making empty promises....
i m so tired of all listenin to empty promises...
since young i was promised things...
but its never came for me...
i swear i will never make an empty promise....
i hate empty promises....
the feeling of knowing that someone is going to get u the thing
but it never comes just sucks....
i have grow cold to such promises...
i will never trust anyone...
i m so lost at wht to do now...
all i want now is to get back the wood...
i was so devastated when it was thrown away...........
never gona let someone hurt me again....
my heart is closed....
i wanna come true for u...

excited :)

2009-06-02T21:47:00.001+08:00

i cant wait....6 more days...
i made u some super nice stuff:)
anyway its the great singapore sales...
i love it daddy lets me shop shop shop la....
thursday going to bread and butter to get my jeans:)
excited....its amazing when u ask...

hahaha WOHOHOHOHOHWOOLALA
lennard:)

smile cos i love u

2009-05-25T20:42:00.002+08:00

How come the one i wanted to
share my dreams with,
took my dream from me.

Don't make the same mistake I did.
Don't let yourself be so angry that you stop loving,
because one day you'll wake up from that anger,
and the person you love will be gone.

There is one pain I often feel which
you will never know because
it is caused by the absence of you.

Of all the words of tongue or pen,
the saddest are those...it might have been.

Who do you turn to when the only person
who can stop you from crying
is the one who is making you cry?

I understand that with loves comes pain,
but why did i have to love so much?

The part that hurts me the most,
is knowing that I once had you and then lost you...

The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love
you have and knowing it will never be returned.

Its hard to pretend you love someone when
you don't but its harder to pretend that
you don't love someone when you really do.

How do you heal a broken heart?
I have no idea where to start
because everything I do reminds me of you.

first dates are awkward,
first kisses are heavenly,
first loves irreplaceable,
first heartbreaks are unforgettable

RAWRRR:)
happy sia ....dont know why...
my run last sunday was dam GOOOOOOOD
*i like* its fun once in a while to reall push yourself ...
yea so completed 10 km in 30 plus mins after that went to shower with pritpal...
then mr song dropped us off at bedok ..had mac and then
we went to watch angels and demon....
its reaally a nice show if u haven seen it...5 out of 5 stars..
GRRR my muscles are aching real bad...
you're on my mind the whole time....
its like fun to lead people around like tour guide...
so i know you're having fun plus staying in your hostel:)
i cant wait to see u again:)

l;ennard
;0

todays a bad da

2009-05-17T01:01:00.003+08:00

Should I Smile Because You're My Friend
Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?

A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back,
I Know Because I've Tried.
Neither Would A Million Tears,
I Know Because I've Cried.

Forget The Times You Walked By,
Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry,
Forget The Time You Held My Hand,
Forget The Sweet Things If I Can,
I Can No Longer Pretend
, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend

When I Look At You My Heart Skips
A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean
A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted
On Something I Knew I Could Never Have

How Can You Be Friends With Someone
If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes
You Want Them Even More?

My Heart Was Taken By You,
Broken By You And Now
Is In Pieces Because Of You

As Part Of You Has Grown In Me,
Together Forever Shall We Be,
Never Apart Maybe In Distance But Not In Heart

Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving
someone if your heart still does.

Even when I pour my heart out to you,
I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know.

Sometimes it's hard to love someone
because you're so afraid of losing them

I know in reality we can't be together,
so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me...
in my dreams you're mine forever.

I was reborn when you first kissed me.
Part of me died when you left me.
But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me.

You are always there for me
and so you give me the courage to stand alone.

todays a bad day...:(

glad

2009-05-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

TODAYS A GREAT DAY.....
ENDED EXAMS TODAY....WOWOWOWOW
PA-RTYYYY TIMe....:)
i like i like alot alot ...
anyway went out today to run some errands....
went out with samual and his friend....
super cool peeps to go out with....
i m always entertained :)
i love going out....
cant wait for my run on the 24TH wowowowowowowo
i wanna go fishing eat satay drink stufff.....
interested ?

*i cant wait to go out with u again*

:'(

2009-05-12T16:08:00.003+08:00

i'm not alright....
i'm so tired of all that is going on around me....
mum's sick and dad's in hospital....
i cant just pretend that i m alright.....
i'm leaving...once and for all....
maybe i should have done that years ago...
i'll return what ever i owe to u.....
after that its over.....i'd be gone.....

pissed

2009-05-11T21:49:00.003+08:00

Tired as in DAM TIRED as in SUPER DOOPERULTRA TIREd
BLOODY KICK ASS TIRED
ya this few week STINKS....
exams sucks....
dam f**** tired of studying seriously....
PISSED TO THE CORE.....
i just came back from studying ....
SHACKED...i feel like sleeping but i cant...
maths paper 2 is just tomorrow...
dam stressed.....
like a ticking time bomb...
my vessels are going nuts....
today met samuel and his friends today to go study...
first we met at jurong east at 1 headed towards vivo....
studied at starbucks for like 2 hrs....
before we headed to SMU to study :)
met one of daddy's company the student:)
sat there and mug for like 2 hours plus....
and i seriously did nothing but chiong maths
dam sick of it....
tmr's maths plus amaths....
DOUBLE COMBO FOR GOING RETARDED
decided tmr amaths to sleep and do facial mask...:)
going to bring a pillow and the face mask thingy:)
enjoy life and slack there for 2 and a half hour:)
totally broke....i feel like vomitting now....
sick man...DIE

anyway pray for my dad...
came back already ...
celebrated his birthday on Sat...
and he's staying here currently
went for a op today....
he's not feeling good....:(
he's warded....
F********** dam irritated now.....
he's back and then wht the crap man....
cant be a better time huh.....
ROAR i just wanna start jogging nw....
i need to relieve stress......
so many things happening....

*i cant tell u how much u mean to me*
lennard

she's my drug

2009-05-10T10:18:00.003+08:00

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE.

i kind off like what this says.....:)
anyway i had a fine evening with her yesterday:)
i don't know why but we were both dam tired yesterday:)
and her little pinkie was hurting but she still made an effort to walk around with me:)
will not tell u much what we did but ....
were ate alot....like really alot :p
she was like can we go to a place with aircon? *cute face*
she suggested mac but i suggested apple strudel:)
so yea we went there to eat...
she had a mango strudel i had a strawberry strudel...
sat there for a long time talking:)
after that we just left and we just started walking:)
somehow we ended up at the cinema area....
sat there and started talking:)
i like totally....
she's cool la......

anyway i shall end here:)
remember to wish your dearest mummy happy mothers day yea:)
lennard

:)

2009-05-08T14:46:00.003+08:00

today's a nice day...Don't you think so?
or perhaps i m just happy good moodie:)
finally its the end of the week huh...
its been a very tiring week for me...
staying up to 1 am plus just to chiong and cram loads of information into my brain...
but its been a really fruitful week...
sometimes i just love studying:)
apart from the slacker you guys know me as....

anyway Wednesday was a superdooperultramega fun day for me:)
after my paper i just chiong home to change and freshen up....
went out with Melinda the whole day....
she's a super dooper nice girl to go out with la...
but she the sweetest too....
she ended school at 11 i guess, but she waited for me for all my papers to end like abt 3 hours :)
isn't that the sweetest thing...
ok back to the day...
i was supposed to meet her last last week to go watch seventeen again...but i stood her up cos i cant make it down in time...
so we met on wed to go watch seventeen again at cineleasure....
before we went to catch the show...we had lunch+ dinner at kfc....
cos she had craving to eat chicken:) although she already had chicken rice in her school.
she was cute too the max la ...it took her 2 million years to finish her food....
anyway after eating we got our tickets and popcorn....
we sat at the couple seats:)
after the movie we went over to paragon starbucks to study...
i was complaining to her how much i wanted to seat on the couch ...
then she just went retarded and called me swine....LOL
anyway we left around 9 plus...
took mrt to her house thenshe alighted cos her mom was fetching her....
lol and yea continued the ride home alone....
most fun day.:)

anyway i have a video in youtube its about me hanging at the staircase...wht we do when we sneaked out of class.....

kudos...
lennard

think of switchin

2009-04-26T21:04:00.004+08:00

i m sunburnt*putffff*.
Yesterday was a rather fun day for me, had so much good food and most of all yesterday was my AQUALTHON (run+swim= pride)
The swim was alrighty but the run was dam sian. But on the Good note there were loads of hot chicks:) made friends with some of them.
Hey i got 30 out of the few 100 in my category who also took part. So thats like not bad la...
But yea was really frustrated at the organizes...They suck la...
this is like the worst experience la like a nightmare...there were no proper mats for us to run on to the transition point...
really lousy la...

Anyway i kindoff stood Melinda up yesterday la....it also cos i was dam tired plus i was like dam pai sei if i were to meet her parents so ya...we were suppose to catch a movie plus a nice dinner...oh well her aunt's back from hong kong so ya...at least she had fun with her aunt. Great to know she had fun...

anyway my skin's really hurting now....
gtg bye loves...lennard

i feel all alone suddently

2009-04-12T00:27:00.003+08:00

can i go back to when i first met u?
i cant lie to myself saying i dont like you...
i thought so long about u....
your smile floods my mind...
knowing you're ok daily is more than just feeling great...
i love talking to u ...
i'd bake u a huge heart shape cookie...
seeing u every week has been really great to me....
since young i get almost everything i want...
But thats not enought...
more than material needs all i really want YOU...
i wanna know how u feel about me.....
i really dont give a shit about what the rest says about you....
Sweetie to me you're the most perfect girl...

i love sharing with u know that you'd laugh....
baby your smile's the sweetest....
you're the reason for everything....
i cant get over you...
you're my every reason why i laugh...
you're the reason why my hearts beats....
you're the reason why joy is in my life...

:(

2009-04-07T15:42:00.002+08:00

i feel so tired ...
i need a break....
will u please...
nothing's going the way i want it..
i need u more than ever....
CALL ME >>> i wish i can pour my hearts out to you...
i miss u baby

2009-04-06T13:54:00.003+08:00

My minds made up....
not going to change or even intend to look back at my decision...
been let down time and time again by the people i trust...
enough is enough la....
it has not been a one time event that has lead to my decision but its been many occasions.
i feel trapped ...
i'm not enjoying as much as i used to...
i used to love it but now...
its just gone ...
i tired to find back...
for moments i did but u all just let me down again...
but u know at least i can thank GOD knowing i have such a great IC enyun...
she's always very updated about me....
she's not like the others....
she's a person i can pour my hearts out to...
WHO ELSE CAN I GO TO??..
YOU"RE ALL SO FAKE...
i cant keep going just to keep u happy ...
sometimes i hate it....
you're forcing it...
HOW I FEEL IS NOT HOW U THINK I M ok....

well just know when i leave...
i will just wash my hands off everything...
one day i disappear...
you know i m not coming back anymore....
yea u can call me but i wont pick up...
visit me and i'll close my door...
we'll just be friends but i wont come back...
never will i open my heart to u all again....
disappointment...
u can just talk behind my back for all u guys want...
LIKE WHT U ALL ALWAYS DO...
its tooo late for a change now....

yes i still love him....
but my hearts too cold for u all....
never again...
well i m leaving with her...
i guess it was a mistake to bring her huh....
there's not happy ending....
sick and tired of being invincible...
in the whole process i found out the hard way who is with me through thick or thin..
don bother to ask yourself wht u all done...
i wont explain...
i will only pick up certain calls...
other than that u know I DESPICE U....

for a minute just look around and think why are we leaving....
is numbers so important....
2 weeks i'll be gone trust me...
i don know where i'll will be going yet...
surely not going back...
let down to the point that i cant keep forgiving...
i cant just stand aside knowing i dont like wht u are doing....
(only a few people know wht i m talking about, if u know pls keep it to yourself, i trust you.)we'll still be able to hang out...

i m feeling much better

2009-03-28T01:13:00.003+08:00

i m feeling much much better now....
without all the needles poking into my veins....
and also the drips:)
REALLY WANNA THANK ALL THOSE WHO KEPT ME IN YOUR PRAYERS:)
xie xie ni
right now my stomach is feeling really empty and painful....
i just feel very nua....
got 10 days mc....
but i dont think i will need it cos i will still be going to school as per normal...
SEEEE i m a GOOD BOY

anyway really wanna thank all those that smsed me and also those who came down to visit me:)
i shall post your name here :)

FOR THOSE WHO SMSED ME:P
1.LYNN 2.CHOW TEE 3.SHANNON 4.JORDEN 5.KENRICK 6.ENYUN 7.IIFAH 8.ALVIN LOW 9. JIAYIN 10.JOLLIN 11.SARA LEOW
FOR THOSE WHO VISITED ME:)
1.SERENE POK
2.CHOW TEE
3.RUTHE

FOR THOSE WHO'S NAMES ARE NOT HERE PLS GO REFLECT...
AND FOR THOSE WHO'S NAMES ARE NOT UP PLS DO INFORM ME...

I REALLY THANK GOD FOR A FRIEND LIKE SARA LEOW:)
SHE MADE MY DAY LA....
SHE'S KINDOF KIDISH AT TIME BUT SHE'S SUPER COOL LA....
BTW I CALL HER NINJA TURTLE:)
ANYWAY SHE MADE ME THIS SUPER CUTE AND COOL ECARD SINCE I TOLD HER NOT TO TROUBLE HER TO SEND ME A GET WELL SOON CARD:)

anyway i really enjoed tonight's man's meeting...
really a platform to show our manhood and come together as a whole:)
learnt alot la...
thanks god for good seats la...
i was seated at the front floor seats in the middle 3rd row.
super cool....
alrighty i m super tired ...
good nites babes:)

2009-03-24T20:16:00.002+08:00

so tired and giddy...
feeling so nua...
today been a really relaxed and also been a very physically draining day for me...
i woke up and vomitted blood just like yesterday morning....
so feeling so bad i just went back to sleep ...
i really love my mummy la....
she knew i was feeling so terrible and she gave me $$ to go see a doctor...
she did not nag at me at all....
she rocks la.....
today i did 2 blood test....
kindoff cool since its my first time la...
was rushed to emergency unit...
thank god sis was there to accompany me....

really thank GOD for my friends and peeps i know....
after i told my class chair person some how or rather
most of them sent me encouragment....
FELT LOVEEDDDD:D

anyway on the current update....
i m feeling much better now...
but pls keep me in prayers....
tomorro i will do more testing....
pray that i will be totally healed and alright tomorro:)

lennard:)

2009-03-20T19:57:00.002+08:00

super full right now:)
went out with mummy and sister to eat sakura buffet...
in my honest opinion i feel it really sucks they concentrated on the variety of food but no on the quality of the food....
anyway even regardless of the lousy food quality i still thank GOD i had the chance to spend quality time with my EVER busy mum....
on a lighter note we will not be going back to eat ever again la....
anyway after eating my mum brought me and sis to orchard to shop ...:)
I like i like:)
bought a few things and yea :)
mummy really loves me after all la....
she bought so much things for me...
not just clothes but also things for me to use....
feeling super lazy now leii....

tomorrow i will be free at night
wont be sending any one home nw....
i don know wht happen la....
dont ask me seriously i don know wht seriously happened...
i guess its my fault la....
maybe it should not have started in the first place ...

i m lost anyway i just took a test to see if i would make a great boyfriend:)
the result is.....

Excellent

You're a really loving, and caring person towards your BF/GF. You really do care for them, and you love them unconditionally. Anyone would be lucky to have you. Because you'll always treat them with love, and care. ;D

haha i ROCK:)

love:) lennard
this song is really rejuvenating

i miss the fun and laughters

2009-03-18T22:12:00.003+08:00

been so long since i blog...
dam i lost the touch...
been really busy as of late...
so many things to attend to...
this few weeks has been like my happiest week la...
on monday i woke up super excited to go to NYp for my design course thingy...
initally we were all like them pai sei but...we opened up...
eventually we had fun...
i had a blast with my groupies...:)
met so many super dooper ultra cool peeps...
i was so blessed to have known SARA LEOW:)
she was super dooper cool la...
she basically helped us in all our ideas...
plus her voice totally sounds like a primary school kid la...
haha she rocked la...
we pestered her to tell us her love story and stuff la...
she was super open la but wht she said was super true la...
she shared about her boyfriend and her MUST have of her future boyfriends to be
1. she will only date if she thinks she will marry the person
2.she does not rush into stuffs la...(u know wht i mean )
and also she said something that kind off seriously made me reflected la...
she said everytime u get into a relationship you will give a part of your heart away so if u have alot of previous relationship u would have given a huge part of your heart away but at the end when u stand at your marriage ceremony how much of your heart is really left for your wife...dam shocked la...
woke me up suddently...
oh by the way she is a christian plus she is like the best in the whole NYP design school lol and she's so good she got invited to ikea to be a designer at switzerland super cool la...
super motivated when i met her la....

and i made so much friends over there la...there is this guy i went to disturb at the second day just randomly called him kumar and our friendship started from there la...we made friendships our of a converstion la....i will treasure this 2 days that we spent together to chiong our folio....and also the food there is DAM cheap la...
super cool poly...i miss that school and the people there plus the company of sara and her voice plus the others...:(

but now i know wht i really want i want to and i must work hard for my future...
GOD LOVES me:)

i love u tooo:)
lennard (finally i end on a happy note)

....

2009-02-19T20:01:00.002+08:00

RAWR...i have no mood...
your every actions seems to really affect my life...
i m affect by wht you do....
its this feeling inside of me....
i'm losing control...
i need a friend to share my thoughts....

:(

just lost it

2009-02-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

alright let cut the crap and be serious...
i m thinking of closing this blog like seriously....
i figured out i lost my blogging bug....
and i wont want a dead blog....
bloody no one tags....

sick and tired of such shit...
so irritated now....
DON'T PISS ME OFF...
just cos u think your smart don make others feel stupid ok....

anyway lennard's recent obsession with ed hardy and christian audigier
has finally taken a toll ....
i been spending too much...
and the designs are getting nice...
everytime i buy ed hardy shirts i would always say to myself "its the last time"
and everytime i would get another and yet another one...
m feeling the pinch la....
anyway if your guys haven seen the new designs plus go see...super chio to the max:)

lennard

i m stuck at this junction

2009-01-29T18:10:00.002+08:00

i sick and tired of doing the same routine every single week...
makes me irritated...
it's so pressuring to see u guys week after week..
i have been spending so much money this season...
and i just realized dad's company is running into financial problems...
i m dam tired of this shit la...
everyday is getting worst ...

new shirt yea

2009-01-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

tada..lennard's new shirt...
flown in from the US:)

wht to even say?

2009-01-24T12:44:00.002+08:00

school's been great for me...
i m kindoff stressed but its just the beginning
i just hope i made the right choice ...

i m devastated,blown away and swept of my feet...
i just found out something....
i wanna go to her now...
wanna be by her side....
i pray that GOD will take her though this tough period in her life....
i know 's gona be alrighty....
GOD mend her broken heart...
i know that she's gona let go of it and smile :)

2009-01-18T23:48:00.002+08:00

tears flooding me eye...
let downs after let down...
its affects me so much...
i m just sick of it...
when u come home i just cant express how much i want to talk to you ...
but i dont know how to...
i need you around me...
i m tired of being alone....
i fell so DAM trapped
my world is so dark now....
i'm so lost....
can u be a good father and guide me please ....

i wanna SCREAMMMMM so loud...
i m so stressed .....
i'm listening to worship song now...
i just wanna cry...
cos i know GOD will never let me down....

i feel all alone suddently

2009-01-11T11:34:00.002+08:00

i feel really all alone now...
i dont know why this sudden feeling....
all alone at home just suck...
this few days and a few certain events that took place in my life
has certainly got me contemplating hard and long....
some events has really got me down and thinking so much...
some times i feel i have lost track in my life....
everything has been blurred away...
these clouds and thunderstorm seem to haunt me....

i m hard pressed...
stuck in this junction of finding my true identity...
its this wht i want...NO
i want so much more in my life....

i miss you....
cant u hear me...
read my mind...
feel my heartbeat...
i'll give up the whole world for you alone...
9 more days...
to your big day...
i'm sending u my love in a teddy bear...
its gona cost me alot...
but you're worth it...
i m just hopping and praying you'll like it...
i cant wait for june 13...
but will find out then...

lennard :)

all this while...

2009-01-10T12:14:00.002+08:00

sec 5 has been a blast for me...
as in very relaxx la...

anyway i really dont know wht to write about...
anyway i shall just update for fun:)

wahhhhhh

2009-01-02T22:42:00.001+08:00

lennard's so excited la....
today he had lunch with ashley isham..as in seriously seat on the same table and talk kind...
i swear i m not lying pls...
he was carrying a purple tods handbag...
dam chio pls...anyway he's really kind la...
my mom knows him...dont ask me how but i just found out today only:)wahaha

anyway happy new year

I HAVE A DREAM

2008-12-31T00:14:00.002+08:00

I HAVE A DREAM....
by MARTIN LUTHER KING...
1963 March on Washington, where King delivered his “I Have a Dream” speech. There, he raised public consciousness of the civil rights movement and established himself as one of the greatest orators in U.S. history.

I MEAN HE IS ONE OF THE GREAT GUYS U CAN FIND HUH...
anyway i was watching forbes top 20 just now on tv...
and i kindoff feel spurred to do something big to create a legacy for me...

and i though of this for a long time...
and i mean i wanna be a business man in future ..i think is in my blood..me and dad
and i realized .... something huge ...

not all singaporean know about the brand called JIMMY CHOo....
i mean its huge in the US and i though maybe when i grow up i wanna bring it to sg...
i means i wanna create a name for myself in this world ....
i m not happy just living a normal mundane lifestyle...6am-6pm...
i got to do more i wanna do way better than wht i m ....
having lived and been to US for a few months last time...its always been a great brand la...
and i m set on being a millionaire by 18...
i have a dream

distress the only way i know how

2008-12-27T01:40:00.038+08:00

Hey readers...
This year has been a great year for us huh..?
well maybe to some it has not been a wonderful year..
but well life goes on...
this year has been of a great significance in my life.....
its been a learning journey for me or at least...
as this year comes to a closing soon....
at least i can say i had loads of fun ....

anyway this holiday has been rather EXPENSIVE for me...
financially ... so far i have spent more than 2 THOUSAND on just going out....
plus the shopping and the regular parties/chalets i have been attending...
anyway its been a fruitful holiday for me...
i did loads and loads of shopping....
i bought loads of designer stuff...
t-shirt and the rest...

so now i have almost two weeks of ed hardy haha....
so excited to get my up coming shirts...
i love it to the MAX....
anyway i was browsing the ed hardy webbie just now...
some caught my eyes....i m totally after ed hardy now....
its not just shopping pls its an indulgence i don't ever wanna get out of IT...

anyway i'll just upload all the pictures that caught my eye....
and as soon as i get news of new shipments...i'll go see
and hopefully it has what i want....
i'd give up everything for ed hardy...its to die for...

well i said i'll upload so here goes...
i think it might lag your com...
so jiayou...

well i have categorize the pictures...
1. ED HARDY t-shirts
2. ED HARDY hoodies/jeans
3. CHRISTIAN AUDIGIER t-shits
4. SMET t-shirts
and last but not least...
5. DIOR SHADES

so here goes nothing:)
1. ED HARDY t-shirts

2. ED HARDY hoodies/jeans

3. CHRISTIAN AUDIGIER t-shirts

4. SMET t-shirts

LASTLY ...DIOR SHADES

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well done u made it to the end...
anyway just for your ear's pleasure...

anyway lennard here...OUT

i need to start to save

2008-12-25T02:36:00.002+08:00

Hey readers...
MERRY CHRISTMAS>...
SCREAMSS>>>>>>>

anyway it christmas i love the shopping:)
i m getting this red top :)
i love it so much last piece my size:))))and plus i m getting that orange jacket tooo...
so total about 500 bucxkksss

must haves

2008-12-21T00:47:00.003+08:00

Well today shopping at ed hardy again was one of the worst....
lousy service from one of the supervisors lol....
never even bother to serve me at ALL....
hello....reality check pls...
i m interested in buying ...
hais....just because i m a kid / teenager does not mean i have no $$...
stupid adults

anyway forget it..
i kindoff forgive her cos she was really busy...
anyway i saw and tired this jacket...i love
i m going to buy...its only $269....
but i have discounts..wahahahaha
its dam chio:)

enlighted

2008-12-20T01:48:00.003+08:00

....
troubled at the same time happy
i made it to sec 5 ...
7 points:)
i dont really feel it matters to my parents lol....
whole day work work work...
anyway its confirm ...
for holidays next year..i'll be spending time with sui jin's family in US...
happy shopping...
anyway cant believe i squandered away 1.9k this hoilday..

it happens at times

2008-12-18T11:44:00.003+08:00

what to do....
misunderstanding happen lar huh....
after all we don live in a all perfect environment...
anyway after finding out what really happened..
kind off feel normal again:)

pictures post

2008-12-07T01:03:00.009+08:00

for the viewing pleasure of you and my dear fahmy
my ed hardy and ca hoddie

its dam chio i know:)

i m so dull

2008-12-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

i feel like tearing now:(
i wish u were here beside me:(
today while cross the road to orchard MRT..i thought of you:(
crowds stream pass me..
can u see how i feel :(
we used to have a love story:(
until she left..i still think of her occasionally
sometimes i feel alone:(
i know i seem emo..
but it aint so isn't in this BLOG
i m just emotionally lose:(

so i just let it out by shopping:)
anyway i bought another ED HARDY top again today:)
so officially i have 1 week's collection of ed hardy to wear:)
one shirt everyday:)
i bought a CHRISTIAN AUDIGIER hoddie
its the nicest of all so far:)
the also the blingest and sexiest
it cost 552.90 initally but i bought it at 330 plus cos of 40% discount:)
i shall take a picture of all my tops and upload it here :)
anyway melinda came along today for shopping:)
eating at fish and Co was the most fun experience ever ..
we eat,talk and most importantly laugh :)
i m glad she came along today:)
i love u melinda:)

cheers
lennard is going to bed now:)

i dont know how i feel :(

2008-12-01T21:47:00.008+08:00

Today feels Weird.
In a way something isn't right at all.
I woke up this morning and i can't turn my neck.
Freaking stiff neck and it was super early around 8 plus.
IRRITATING. Been going out so often .
I guess its time to even stay at home for a full day,
perhaps i'll catch up on my sleep :)

I really wish i have an answwer right now.
This few days i've been seein you.
And its really time i ask my own feelings about you.
Do i really wanna get to know you?
its been a question on my mind this few days.
I enjoyed the times when i got to see you.
But i don't know how you feel about me.
Should i go for it or not?
I mean you're really cute but to an extend.
i'm lost.
i m stuck at this junction.
should i move on?
i wish i have an answer:(

anyway Christmas is coming...
just a few weeks away only :)
i m so excited..
its the time in a year where..
i get PRESENTS and eat turkey lar...
i just cant wait for mom and dad to bring me on a shopping SPREEEEEE
woooo...excited new clothes and shoes...
every thing NEW!
good bye old clothes...
and its more ed hardy and chirstian audigier..
anyway i told my dad i wanted to get a CA jacket...:)
hopefully just hopefully...

anyway i was super disappointed lar pls.
i went to paragon in full hope of getting my white PRADA shoes
and when i went in ...the service sucks man...
they did not serve me lar...
shit prada people...
and i also found out the shoes i wanted waas 2 seasons ago ...
RAWR>...dan after that me,kenrick,enyun and her cg member followed me to
banana repulbic cos i wanted to shop there...and i found nothing really nice so we moved on.
so we went into hugo boss and finally...
because we were too tired and i felt lazy.
i brought thme over to starbucks for a drink haha.
my treat. so we chatted until they pani seh me and kenrick...
after that we went over to keith's chalet:)

anyway photo updates..
last week random meeting ..
dinner at hong kong cafe....
i highlighted my hair:)

title

2008-11-27T10:22:00.002+08:00

hey guys...
its been a long time every since i blog...
well i cant say long but its been weeks i guess...
anyway u will notice something different abt this post huh...
normally before every post i'll put a picture...
but for this post i'll pass ...
cos i cant find any nice pictures...

anyway this few months have been very tiring for me...
i have been waking up early this past few days...
and coming home super late like at 1 am in the morning..
u can roughly understand:)
anyway i just realised i have been spending alot....
i spent abt 900 so far...seriously
i been doing alot of shopping recently :)
4 tops cost me 500 plus lar....
and i m going to get a prada shoes...
im thinking it would cost 600 plus...:)
oh man over indulgence on brands....

i m so contented :)
anyway i m lost in thoughts...
blog soon:)

i m self contented

2008-11-18T00:13:00.001+08:00

hey faithful people...
i m so super ultra high now....
wowooooo
i finally got my Christian audigier shirt today...althought it was still 200 plus...
but money well spent...
i also got like a top from SMET and HARD 8 lol....
super ex...but i like...
will take picture.s...
i m challenged to get more...haha
stop me pls:)

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2008-11-17T08:13:00.001+08:00

if only u could feel how i feel...
baby i miss you

All ABOUT ME

2008-11-13T21:54:00.002+08:00

i aint OKIE...RAWR...
Working today was rather slack....
left office at 4.45 instead of 5.30...
i don care anymore...
plus my boss went off...
and besides i had nothing to do...

i m still at the point where...love seems kindoff blur now...
i know how i feel inside...
but i cant express it...
words just cant carry the weight of my feeling...
i need a place to release my inner emotions...
the REAL me...
i Need to run until i m lost ..
i need a new love...
a REAL LOVE...
i wana go back to my FIRSt lOVE...
i m tired of just constantly running away from the reality i m facing...
i dont wana quit nor even back down...
i wana win so badly...
i wish u could feel how erupted i m ...
i m on the VERge...

if only i could say i love you once again...
its to late...i wana cry i wanna run...
i hate myself for hurting u ...
if only i had a second chance...
i might work out for us...
u wont have to even leave at all....
we could be right where we are...
just you and me...
you and me
you and me
....
if only if only
i could turn back time...
i wanna stay with u ...
every corner i turn just sucks...
i need u right here in singapore...
i cant hear u or feel u...
i need u badly....
so much...

i wanna know how u are doing in the middle of your day...
not in the morning or even in the night...
i wan a change...
but sometimes i just cant imagine anymore...
maybe its because i m just too disappointed...
i feel like shit internally....
how u feel abt me...matters alot
how i feel is not how u would feel...
why m i constantly like this?...

i just wish u are here to be with me...
to even chat on the phone...
to even sms me
to even email me
to even msn me...
but sadly not anymore...
u have changed ...
private profile i m just so lock up away from your world...
i need to know wht is going on...
i wanna wake up for this...
i wanaa wake up to see U...

baby how i miss ya

eye on the price

2008-11-10T21:06:00.003+08:00

Everything around me has taken a huge toll on me...
i m physically and emotionally...stretched...
seriously i cant pretend nothing has happen..
i m just numb to it...
i'd rather enjoy life dan even probe into it..
i m riding into a monsoon..
i m just so tired of running away from the problem...
its time to face up....
running away is not gona be part of me FROM NOW ON ...
i just thank GOD for the cool people he placeed around me...
to even hear my crap...:)
W414 is not just any number

anyway i m kindoff lost in love...
i dont understand...
i m so lost in the relationship....
she changed so much....
i m starting to not know her anymore...
she has changed....
maybe i have too...
i m so madly in love with her...
i don know wht is going through her mind...:(
i wish she could feel how..i feel
long distance relationships are dam hard to keep...
now i know:(
right now i m counting doing the days when she will come back again...
its gona be so long....
but still i shall...
its hard but i know...
its hard for me to even think abt her daily...
i wanna grow old with her...
she is the one ..i just know it...
its the special feeling...
instant connection...

anyway i shall end on this note :)
i will leave u all to contemplate on this: are u happy with your current life?

i feel so Bad

2008-11-07T23:23:00.002+08:00

i m so TIRED....
but i m really glad i m working in dad's company...
the pay's not bad plus i really get to slack lar...
really nothing much to do lol....
i m supposed to start work at 8.30 AM but i will stroll in at 9 plus ....
cos all of them do it...plus i m special lar...
anyway my boss is kindoff bitchy lar....
talk so loud....
but i really still find working Fun pls....
i get paid to eat ice cream, slack and go for 2 hours lunch break...
haha....not to mention the fact that i always lunch-IN with all HOTTIES f the company....
i m always the lucky Guy ...but thats beside it...

anyway i only sleep sometimes n work lol....
its not called skiving or slacking....
its simply called DESERVED REST....

anyway cos today i was so sleepy...
i went all the way to hereen to get a cup of starbucks...
(its the 4 cup this week :))
yea and its was like 4 plus coming to 5 ...
yea and i got myself a venti size cherry mocha...
its one of the lastest drink...quite nice.. lar
anyway i love the cup designs...

k back to the main point...
i left work at 5 .15 with my cup of drink almost half empty....
i was feeling kindoff funky so i decided to take 190 home...cos i thought for a change...why not...
yea and the bus came...so i bored..and i kena chased down by the uncle...
cos of my drink....

was wondering if i placed my drink in the given paper bag..would it have been allowed....
i mean wht is the diff lar...
u still bring the drink up the bus ..rite...
its kindoff stupid lar...
its not like i have butter fingers pls...
really wasted my time lar...
and not to mentions i missed 3 190 busses lol....
IDIOT pls...
anyway yea...LEAVE A TAG IF U AGREE WITH ME ABT MY POINT ABT THE PAPER BAG okie:)
much loved...

i love u people...christmas is coming soon....
i m going ed hardy shopping with sui jin next week...
haha i m so excited....

cant wait...
lennard

feeling slutyy now:)

2008-11-03T00:44:00.002+08:00

hey babes...hotties...handsome...pretty :)
i m back :)
haha i just came back from sentosa ...
so super fun lar..
i wana go there and club...super hotties...
wooooo
i love its...i just wana club the whole nite way there....
i love hot chicks:)

i sick and tired of this kind off shit...

2008-10-29T22:12:00.003+08:00

i m OFFICIALLY working now...
at my dad's company ...
i get to eat ice cream everyday....
play and basically just SLACK...
my colleague sitting beside me is kindoff cute..:)
after all she is formally from CHIJtp so yea...
so is also super smart...
but its not abt her lar....

i still stick to my first impression of working:FUN ...
seriously i don care how u all feel but its super fun to work lar...
i get to meet different types and kindoff people lar...
and i m treated like a king over there lar....
i get to eat loads of food...
and the kind aunties over there buys me breakfast every morning so its...
KINDOFF COOL lar....

Anyway i have been contemplating for a long time already.....
and i feel enough is seriously ENOUGH lar...
I M SICK AND TIRED OF PLANNING THINGS FOR U GUYS....
AND U GUYS ARE NOT EVEN THE LEAST GRATEFUL...
I M SERIOUSLY TIRED OF U GUYS CURSING ME WHEN I CANT MAKE IT...
I SERIOUSLY FEEL ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...

I CALLED U FRIENDS BECAUSE I TRUST AND CARE FOR U GUYS....
BUT WHEN I CANT MAKE IT...I FEEL THAT U AS MY FRIENDS SHOULD UNDERSTAND
I M NOT THOSE KIND OF PEOPLE WHO ALLWAYS BACKS OUT IN THE LAST MINUTE...
ITS WAS NEVER ME AT ALL....
U GUYS CLAIM U KNOW ME.....
BUT I DONT THINK SO NOW.....
I THINK I HAVE TOLERATED ENOUGH....
ITS COMES TO A POINT WHERE I FEEL ...I M BETTER OFF WITHOUT U GUYS IN MY LIFE
I HAVE PLANNED SO MANY OUTING FOR U ALL...
I ALWAYS AVAIL MYSELF TO YOU ALL ....
BUT THIS IS THE WAY U TREAT ME....
I M NOT ASKING FOR ACCEPTANCE...
I WAS WANT U GUYS TO RESPECT ME AND MY SCHEDULE....
YES I DONT MIND TREATING U GUYS....
BUT WHEN I THINK OF IT AT THE END OF THE DAY...
ITS NOT WORTH IT.....
ALL THE GOSSIPS..AND CURSES ARE ENOUGH...SERIOUSLY
I FEEL THAT I HAVE SACRIFICED ALOT FOR U GUYS...
CAN U SAY ...I HAVE NOT BEEN TRUE TO MY WORDS....
"NO"
COS THIS FEW YRS I HAVE AVAILED MYSELF TO U ....
I DONT FEEL APPRECIATED AT ALL LAR....
U KNOW I HAVE LOADS OF THINGS TO TELL U GUYS...
BUT WHEN I COME TO THINK ABT IT ...
I DONT EVEN THINK I WANT TO....
I M SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOUR ATTITUDE...

SOMETIMES I FEEL SO LONELY ...
I CANT EVEN TURN TO ANY OF U GUYS AT ALL....
U GUYS SIMPLY CANT BE SERIOUS AT ALL....
NOT EVERY THING TO YOU IS A JOKE LAR.....
U GUYS ARE SO SARCASTIC THAT IT IS STARTING TO DISGUST ME LAR....
ALL THE COMPLAIN IS ENOUGH.....

I M UTTERLY DISSAPPOINTED IN THE WAY U GUYS TREAT MATTERS....AND I M DUSGUSTED IN ALL OF YOUR ATTITUDE....
STOP BEING A FAKE FRIEND U IDIOTS....

i m gona turn in now...
tag me if u have something to say k....
of if u feel unhappy that i m referring to u tag as well....
U WILL KNOW IF I HATE U IF I DONT REPLY YOUR TAG....

shalom readers:)
have a great day ahead
lennard

Helping him :)

2008-10-23T20:02:00.002+08:00

hiie.... little peeps .... helping lennard 2 post de , i am his friend ( jesslyn )
erm , dunno wad 2 rite !!! :) holidays liao ..... wish u happy holidays n a good days ahead .... will miss friends n lennard haha .... n is loved by miie :)

Bang bang kiss kiss FUCK FUCK

2008-10-23T19:46:00.002+08:00

went to work today....
super slack lar....
played and eat ice cream ...
i still think working is fun ....
EVerybody there LOVES me like totally.....
cos i m HOT PLUS CUTE

Anyway i m leaving tomorro for my hoilday....
cos my dad fly aeroplane....

i m bored....
i kndoff hate u now....
FUCK u...

i know know know it:)

2008-10-09T19:11:00.002+08:00

hey readers its been so long since i blogged or even tagged lar...
anyway i just ended my N levels paper ..D&t was the last paper....
i m seriously very confident of it....

anyway i m graduating tomorrow night...
kindoff sad lar....
i wont really get to see all my friends...
buddies and close friends we have forge over the years....
i really don't wanna lose them...
i wont regret ever coming to this school...
at least i know in this school we have brotherhood...
so much memories i will remember for life....
all the fun times and the serious moments will forever be kept safe in my heart...
i will always remember the times we keep smiling.....
all the camps.... all the showering together and eating together,....
i can count on every single one in this school ....
i will seriously miss the days i spent in my class rooms....treasure all the happy moments.....
but i really pray that we all can still keep in touch ...
gonna miss all the times when we riot in class....
basically just to have fun and even destroying the D&t rooms...
we have been thought a lot and its the stage in life when we separate and embark on a new phrase of life....

jus know i'll miss u guys....
and for all my good buddies i will foreva remember the times when we go crazy and do stupid thigs...memories i will forever cherish

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2008-09-22T23:39:00.001+08:00

I"m starting TO feel that you don't even care about me.....
i'm starting to feel like we are drifting apart....
i need you...
YOur my drug

i want all of them

2008-09-14T22:07:00.009+08:00

Hey guys how have u all been?
great i hope...
i m so excited 12 more days to my BIRTHDAY....
woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
i m gona go so crazy lar....

anyway some people have been asking me wht i want this year so yea
decided to show u all lar... i m uploading from the lowest price to the highest
haha enjoy

First its...

DKNY fragrance

second...
its a crumpler bag

Third...
ED HARDY shirts(must have )

Fourth...
ITs CHRISTIAN AUDIGIER shirts(i want it so badly)

Fifth...
its IPOD tOUCH

6th...
True religion

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C'mon don't give up you're almost there....
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Finally....
BLACKBERRY BOLD.....i totally love this

haha i love all this...
i wish and wish i can have it all this year....

anyway i decide to upload a class montage to show u all how cool my class is

i m tired of waiting....

2008-09-09T00:03:00.002+08:00

....Baby hasn't replied to my email....
i can't wait to see what she will say :)
anyway i just came home...
from celebrating val ang's birthday together with han wee and enyun....
had fun today....we ate at sakae sushi again....
it was super random ... but its was nice with the company today....

after we had problems paying up....
but i shall not say about it....
blah
blah
blah....
after we jus started walking aimlessly in jurong point...
until we decide to watch money no enough.....

i think its sucked but its was a funny show...
anyway its late now...
good nite

lennard

i m lost....

2008-09-07T01:12:00.002+08:00

I feel like crying now....
i need your shoulder baby.....
how i wish your here....
missing u is affecting me...
I WANT U HERE NOW....
i wish i wish i wish....

mug mug mugging

2008-09-05T11:50:00.002+08:00

One week has passed....
anyway i felt that N levels was super easy ...
everything was so DO-able lar
even for chinese which has been my weakest subject ....
i could read every single word lar....
English was even easier lar ...
A1 here i come ....

Anyway i kindoff feeling bored now lar....
Oh yea did i tell u guys i have a Myspace Account?
i dont think i did huh ....
But baby created the profile for me....
kindoff noob lar but yea i love her so much....
THe link is http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=383451865
Click on it yea and maybe create a profile too yea...

I miss baby now.....
she like dam cute lar....
She and her friends are funny lar.....
they made videos like super funny lar...
toot-ness lar
but she laughs like dam funny lar.....
i'll give u her youtube profile k visit and watch the videos....
i'm sure u will not regret
http://www.youtube.com/user/xxsnowladyxx
dont wait till later to watch...DO IT NOW

haha anyway its samantha(PS if i spelled wrong )
BIRTHDAY TODAY
and she says i owe her a NEW york NEw york treat....
haha i ...lazy sia...

anyway i m going to mug now...pray for my results k i m aiming for 6 pts k
Lennard

Baby's the cutest

2008-08-31T22:53:00.004+08:00

it's been a long time coming has it?
"N" level is just the day after tomorrow ....
its the time where the really cramming mugging begins
i'm stress but i'm not afraid of it ...
Seriously i m just gone do my very best and seriously let GOD handle the rest...
I m faith filled...i trust GOD 10000% seriously....
i know he's gona being me through this season yea....
All this months of preparations it really boils down to this very moment....

The adrenaline is seriously pumping the blood vessels are all go ....
Its time to face the fire....

ANyway yesterday was LYNN"S birthday yea.....
btw the is my cell group leader ...known her for 1225315575959646 years....
yea so had a bbq to celebrate her brithday...it was much fun thought....
thank GOD that chuan teng came....

YEa anyway before i left for the bbq i chatted with BABY for a long time on msn....
haha she grew taller....:)
but yea i still love her...the good news is that she'll be coming back next year in june....but i dont know if i'll still be around in singapore....
but i hope i'll be though ....
its so wateva lar anyway her family knows me....i messaged her mom many times liao...
he cousin and even her uncles in states all know me....HAHA ...
but of cos cos we have been together for 5 years now...

i m totally in her with her ....

anyway she made a video...so yea enjoy ..
i'm off going to mug now have a GOOD DAY

lennard

Where's my Sun-shine?

2008-08-22T15:33:00.003+08:00

tired as in seriously....
stressed i'm having a headache now...
home alone.....
pretty emo now...
feeling down and low
i jus saw ........

was jus wondering how i could be better to her
maybe to others as well.....
was googling and using myspace ....
i really don't know wht to believe....
i mean i wanna trust her but if i could only.....
kindoff missin her right now....
i mean i love her so much to die for her ....
every night before my eyelids close she's the last time i think of....
looking at her in the picture...means so much ...
5 yrs is not a short time or a long time....
its been a hard journey painful journey of love.....
maybe i should let go now...
i don wana break my heart anymore.....
my hearts bleeding.....

read the email chow sent me ....
i really lost for words......
so many things are happening....i'm lost
God i need a compass.....
some stuff happened on chow's bday.....
been deep in thoughts lately...
was there a reason?..
i don know how to answer myself and the people around me....
could i have been better? should i have gone there?
loneliness lingers right now
i m really stressed out now.....
depression is slipping in .....

anyway i have made up my mind already ...
i have yet to talk to my parents about my decisions......
i really hope and really pray they will give me their full support.....
probably gona be gone soon ?....
after my O levels i wont be coming back anymore....
maybe its time i find a change in environment...
a well deserved getaway...
for the other plan's i'll see when the time comes....
i hope its a right choice
God bless

lennard

do or die?

2008-08-06T19:55:00.008+08:00

been away from blogging for quite long already...
i seriously lost touch...no inspirations

but anyway school has been a blast for me everyday...
even thought i have to stay back and rush for my D&T...
but ya know its worth it...someday when i m old i can look back and enjoy my life...
sit down drink Starbucks and relax....

been quite sick lately....
i guess cos of the intense stress i have been getting from my D&t...
coming home around 7 plus to an empty house is quite routine now ...
been really interdependent ever since i was promoted to sec 4
no long the old me but a person who is matured in thinking and actions...
not trying to sing my own praises but ... i think i m happier in the current me...

anyway been thinkin of making my own sermon ... and also do the 40 days fast...
i really feel this is the season to move on to something great ...
to really BREAK THROUGH into the whole new level...
its not good to always stay in the same level...

anyway i m really disappointed and troubled recently...i heard so much
as in are u guys mature enough ? or not at all?
seriously u called me a bitch behind my back during some more to a new friend?
i don care wht u called me man seriously u don be a dog to a new friend...
u are a christian leh...u should be more edifying towards others and your fellow brother
seriously i don care wht u have against me but say it to my face lar....
don be a pussy and shut up when u see me act like u did not say anything lar....
i hate it man....u sink lar loser ... if u have the guts say it to me don jus keep quiet when u see me .. u freaking stepper jus kill yourself lar...
u call yourself a christian but yet u said i m a bitch towards a new friend ?
what the hell are u thinking? u think u dam cool lar is it?
u from CHURCH OF SATAN IS IT ?
u really spoil my mood lar....
u think you're all that but frankly you're not even all that pls....
that a look at yourself in front of a mirror...
u are so immature lar...childish behavior ...
GROW UP LAR seriously ...
i don even wana talk abt u anymore....

yea anyway its been long since i uploaded pictures...
so yea picture updates

enjoy lennard

devestated... emotionally tore out

2008-07-11T11:30:00.004+08:00

shocked lost for words....
i wanna run away from this forever...
i don wan u to go....
that feeling of emptiness is eating me up....
why did u have to go?
i m seriously devastated and torn apart....
i haven't been feeling good this past few days...
How i wished i could forget everything and just go back normally...
but i just CAN't....
Baby your face blurs reality from my eyes....
i want u back by me side now but....
its just wishful thinking
How i wish i could show u how much i love u ....
but i cant.....
i cant measure or even don anything to express that love and bond i have with u ...
i love u too much to let u go once more

I can see that you’ve been crying
You can’t hide it with a lie
What’s the use in you denying
That what you have is wrong
I promise you forever
But forever’s come and gone
Baby, i would say whatever
It takes to keep you blind
To the truth between the lines, oh...

I will love you more than that
I won’t say the words
Then take them back
Don’t give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say
I will love you more than that

Baby, you deserve much better
What’s the use in holding on
Don’t you see it’s now or never
‘Cause I just can’t be friends
Baby knowing in the end, that..

There’s not a day that passes by
I don’t wonder why we haven’t tried
It’s not too late to change your mind
So take my hand, don’t say goodbye

My heart aches within from missing you,
My lips long for the feel of kissing you,
Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin,
To look into your eyes and see deep within,
Just one warm embrace,
Just to look upon your face,
Just one little touch,
From the one I love so much,
If I could gaze upon your smile,
For just a little while,
To know that you miss me too,
As I'm thinking of you,
To hear the sound of you breathe,
Knowing you'll never leave,
To see you walk up to me,
Then embrace you tenderly,
To just be with the one who's sent my heart reeling.

I miss your smile ,
I miss your laugh,
“ I miss everything about you “

you have taken my heart
Part of me is with you still
Just can't wait to see you
Every heartbeat is a thrill
Girl I'm missing you

*I LÖve U *

i m focus and super motivated

2008-06-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

hey readers...i just came back from bbQ jus now at chuan teng's house...
although only me and shao xiong turned up...
cos mr.neo jin hua was being a pussy....cant wait kan chiong...
but anyway he's not the point....
i really feel super motivated to study now...

shao xiong will be my studying buddy man/....
anyway i ready made up my mind liao....
jus now during the bus ride home....i planned out what i wanted to do next time ..as in my life..
i m going to set targets that i can aim for...

after i finish my o levels....i plan to get abt 5 points
a1 for el,maths,sciences,d&,geog,ss--- b3 mt
i wanna work for a business person or company....
dam i will go poly and do aerospace engineering...ace my course
and dan stright after i will set up a company...i m not sure yet but it depends on the market and the consumer's needs and also if there is a market in singapore...
while doing that i will go to University of CAMBRIDGE to further study ...
by 25 i will make my first million from my company
dan wen i come back i will go do my ns in the air force
at the age of 26 i will marry krystal and we will get married at 2 places one in states and one in dubai....
after i finish my ns i wanna be a pilot for a commercial jet maybe sg airlines
by then i will expand my business and migrate to states to stay...and i plan to settle down there....

but its are my aim in life....so thats why i really really wana work towards its...
i know what i want in life....
anyway tomorro is my el N levels oral exams....
pls pray for my pls...i wana ace this

anyway i have decide to announce that i will no longer be up dating or using the com...for a simple reason to focus on my studys....

me and shong plan liao....
monday-friday after d&t ask mr teo to teach us maths
sat find miss goh to teach physics
sunday- find miss su to teach chem....

seriously i need to start now...

anyway yesterday was serene's 21st bday...
so photo updates ....
arhh cant upload the pics lar...never mind..

anyway its kindoff late now...going to sleep liao good nite...
lennard

my big misTake

2008-06-16T12:01:00.002+08:00

i just read a story from ...
SomeonE's blog...
seriously heart warming ...
i just realized how it super important to really go and treasure stuff
STUFF that we really care about...
even t]he people around u...
u will never treasure something until u have lost something so close to your heart...

its been 4 days since i last seen her or even texted her...
and its 2 weeks since she logged on to friendster....
i mean it hard....
i messaged her but ...no reply...
WHY WHY WHY
was it something i have done....?

and its fucking irritating for me right now...to hear u guys fucking say her...
dam it...is it even funny at all?
seriously what if i said that about your mom...
would u like it?
seriously bitch think before u say stuff....
i totally don need stupid stuff like this...
like seriously i never even commented on u guys before...pls
think before u use words....
i need to cool of man....

seriously i had enough from this shitty world k...
like screw yourself...
i don even wana give a dam about it....
i SERIOUSLY HATE LAST MINUTE STUFFS
had enough from Church ,family and friends...

seriously i don even feel what love u all talk about in cell group...
this is like a church lar k....
don contradict yourself
rite now i m so wateva about it...
NO ONE CARES PLS ...
talk so much about the caring system...
but is it even in place...?
for is it only meant for the friends...not members?
totally i m gona not care now....

anyway i found out that having a boyfriend/girlfriend
is like the hottest topic now that people love to talk about
heard like 2 people discussing about it on the train and bus alot of time liao....

k i m gona sign off now...
leave u guys to ponder over what i have said
lennard,

tired...shacked

2008-06-13T23:09:00.003+08:00

tired ..tired and more tired...
but anyway i just decided to blog?
(from now onwards i will try to use proper English)
anyway i just came back from having dinner with my grandparents and my mother's older sister...
but before that i went to the IT fair...
serious i went there...like wanting to get...
a new mouse, ipod, new phone, new camera
but seriously i only got the mouse....
seriously its dam freaking pack pls....

anyway yea enjoy the song...
its a short post..
lennard

i m sorrie manndy

2008-06-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

THIS POST GOES OUT TO MANNDY

hEY THERE ♥мǻήŅđ♥™....
i m so sorrie i stood u up....
Like from the bottom of my heart...
but seriously i hope u r not pissed or angry with me....
seriously talk to me k ....
so at least i know u r okie....
i know i promised to be there ...but yea

kindoff pissed with myself though....
but yea give me another chance ...
we can still go swimming anytime...
ring me up k ....u have my number

love lennard

seriously...seriously

2008-06-02T17:56:00.004+08:00

i just came back*_-
i m not exactly in the right mood now pls
some STUFF jus freaking spoilt my mood ...
like seriously i hate last minute stuff k...just tell me earlier lar
why cant u just tell me like earlier
honestly don't freaking make my panic lar
ITS DAM SHITTY
like seriously i just came back from having dinner with my mummy and sis at bugis
FREAKIng no mood now k......
DAM STUPID
AIya i m gona wash my hands off such stuff liao....
SUPER PISSED

heck about it liao....
i ain't gona not remember about it liao lar...
anyway yea i m having WYZ youth camp next week...
like so fast can...
anyway i will be gone for 3 days
so yea and also my plan of going out with val, han wee and koon fai is spoilt cos there is a prayer meeting lar....
we planned to go eat, slack , watch movie and shop

also i will be having my quadrathon this Sunday on the 8th
anyone intrested in going down to support me?
its like 8 in the morning a Tampines....
seriously don't let the distance stop u from going down to support me yea
anyway yea u can also fellowship with me lar... jus tag me or even call me(that includes u too manndy if u r reading)
aiya very sian lol seriously....
i did not get to join the Adidas ultra marathon ....lol

YEA AND ALSO I WILL BE EMBARKING ON A 21 DAYS FASTING
ACTUALLY IT STARTED LIAO
PLS PRAY FOR ME YEA.....LOVE U ALL

anyway PICTURE UPDATES

Decideed to be random and take picture of my CHAO TA fingers

anyway im going bye

i don wana know my emotions

2008-05-29T21:15:00.002+08:00

have u every felt like there is this inner person and emotions trying to get out?
like there is a thousand and one emotions trying to break out of u...
to get free and to be heard...

i m like feeling dam emo now...
after listening to a dam emo song...
plus my head is like spinning lar....
i don feel so good after all....
i m so emo now...
i jus listened to a song....

i was jus thinking....
if i lost her....
i don even wana imagine lar....

anyway yea i'll leave u with a video...
it explains how i feel
ps: i love u baby gal

lennard

happy pls....don burst my bubble....

2008-05-26T20:54:00.007+08:00

okie so hi readers?....
i m like dam stressed but happy....
anyway today woke up at like 8 ....
called chuan teng....asked if there was school today ...
he said NO...initially i was like....
U SURE MAN??
but i heard laughters....so yea
i happily went down to school....
but like i saw all of them comming out....
haha they kena chased out/.....
cos there was no LESSOns
k so like wateva me and chuan plus hua went to changi jus to eat BK....
so like played there for like 4 hrs?

anyway my gal's comming back liao....
its been ages since i have seen her....
she will be back for 2 months...
anyway i'll upload and show u pictures of her ....
ENJOY

k i m gone bye
lennard

i m so angry and disappointed

2008-05-23T13:10:00.002+08:00

as i have mentioned i will be going over to new york for 2 weeks
so this morning i woke up....
askin my mom for my passport....
initially she said asked my dad....if he say can dan can lol
so my kind daddy jus agree lol....
he even told me about the place can...
so this morning i went to ask her...
cos last night i got a message from chuan teng ...
he told me to bring my passport to school
so he can pass to his mom dan she can book the tickets...
by the way the ticket there is $2500 + $500(airport tax)
is it really like 3k lar...
plus i m flying my SIA ...transiting in Germany
but wht the hell lar....
SHE SAID NO..
like wht the hell lar....
wen i told her she said i can go ...she said...
i only ask u to go ask your dad i never agreeed to let u go...
seriously larr.....

i was dam pissed off
this morning during assembly....
sean asked if i was very pissed off cos my face was dam black
seriously i head liers lar....
even during the wedding my parents talked abt it....
all my cousins say jus let him go larr....
dan she said i never let u go...jus cos your dad says yes doez not mean u can go
i was dam pissed off i called her lier infront of all her cousins....
dan she pai seh and shut up liao....

so i don care liao i m going there
weather they allow or don allow...
HECK CARE...

i jus got news i cant go liao ...trip canceled...
wht the cock....but still
cos i clashes with alot of things that i have...
haha but chuan is going to buy all my stuff for me haha....

lennard

its all done

2008-05-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

k hey all readers....
i jus came back at like 8 plus k
anyway had dinner at long john silver with li min....
so yea had badminton training today....
so yea i very tired....
not eve gona do hw lar....
lazyness jus murdered me ...
anyway after dinner at lJS i sent her home....
cos it was already very dark so yea....
she was dam funny pls...

haha
anyway readers i have something important to tell u guys...
wasn't suppose to tell u guys...but yes...
i will be going to NEW YORK on the last 2 weeks of the june hoildays
cool huh....haha its confirmed liao...haha
so happy plus excited...
FYI: i will be going with chuan teng only...
so which also means i m travallin alone together with him....
yea going to new york to visit his aunty larrr....
haha so jus go for the fun out of FUN....
like don bother asking me to buy the things u wan ....
i will only buy if my bag allows me too
anyway i will be gone for 2 week...
will try to bring a laptop....

k so i shall update my schedue for june yea....
serves as a reminder to u And me

1-21st - 21 days fast
8th june 2008- Safra quadrathon
9-11th June 2008- Youth camp
16-30th june 2008 - sexy new york

anyway cheers ppl thatsa all
lennard

i m done with you

2008-05-17T12:28:00.003+08:00

FREAKING MOODY PLUS PISSED OFF
like wht the hell lar.....i don know why i have such mixed emotions...
anyway i messaged someone this morning....
okie never reply...this like really pisses me off
wht more i invited u to church...
what the mother is wrong with u...oh my GOD lar.....
honestly i m starting to HATE U NOW like to the CORE
seriously you're jus a normal stuck up bitch....
why why why....
i used to like being with u....
now u have changed....i don understand

is it me or is it jus u ?
U know if u don wana go at least TELL ME !!
i hate last minutes.....
why do u have to freaking LIE to me?
do u like F*** hate me ??
i m so so so super pissed off....
i seriously cant find anymore reason to not hate u plus screw your fat faggot life
u worhtless bitch...i freaking had enough of u and your SHIT
i m going mad larrr.....
U were like on top of my list to bring to church people....
but u know....wht the hell lar....
seriously seriously seriously
SCREW YOUR FAGGOTISE HEAD AND KILL YOUR FAT SELF
serious i don care abt u liao....given up on u...
i m so freaked out and OVER with u
i used to love u so much....
its like you're a different person now...
i did not change it was u ....

stuck up bitch...u jus spoilt my whole day...

oh boy...

2008-05-15T22:59:00.002+08:00

Mummy's sick....
aiyo she's down with fever...
so she never go to work...i really do pityy her personal assistant lar...
cos my mum has loads of stuff to do...
cos u know she's an executive ...
so her life is super busy...
she jus came back from her business trip like 2 weeks ago...
wa lao she told me all the good stuff she ate...

k anyway today i went to badminton trainin...
like so weird lar can...
dan like miss po when to bring this teacher whom i name as chio bu teacher
but she's quite nice lar...haha
so they played badminton with me...k they totally suck
so there were two boys who ask both the chio bu teacher and miss po to buy them drinks if they both lose...to me
so yes they lost cos we played 100 balls..
i won 100 to 50 haha so cool
anyway its so late going to sleep now...
nites sexy people

lennard

so much changes...

2008-05-13T15:34:00.002+08:00

hey you all....
i m BACK like finally after so long yea ....
i have been getting lots of complain and many people have been SUANNING me cos i never

link people

? haha.....
anyway i m so relived that Mid-year exams are so over....
like seriously lar....cos i have been staying up late to mug
but lucky every night me, kenrick, minni and sherly will pei me study cos they also need to study for their exams so yea we have conference call ever night without fail for like 3-4 hours until my ears starts to hurt ...
but its fun cos i m able to take in knowledge while we are still taking....

kk anyway i got back my results today....
dam freaking disappointed lar.....
i failed some subjects...those were the subjects that was most confident in lar
freakking pisseed of lar....dan i was like bugging teachers to give me the 1 or 2 marks ....
but u know they wont give....so i went retarded ....
okie but although i failed Chinese i was quite happy with the result cos the over all was like 47 over 100 (FYI: i always get F9 for cl)so its like cooooool....
the listening compre i got 18 over 20.....cool eh
my Chinese is bad but i can do listening compre....so uber happy...
and also my chem paper 1 i got second higest in class k although there were 2 other ppl who got same mark as me....haha i got like 18 over 20 so unexpected can...but yes i m so happy i passed my science...
anyway sean went to go count my English percentage haha 95% over 100%
haha coooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool lar.....A1
haha

k anyway wen i was like not blogging so much things happen to me lar ....

PS: THIS MIGHT BE A LONG POST....DANGER
k where do i start....oh yea I'll start on the 03052008....if i remember correctly

k it was a sat so yea kasey informed me,kenrick that we were going to study at pioneer mall with minni and sherly so yes....i happily brought all my stuff plus sweets there in hope of mugging....so yea after service we were suppose to go to head down to pioneer mall to find minni at the mac ...but in the end we did not so we went over to the near by coffee shop to fellowship with the cell until 7 plus wen the sky was dark...so we went back with wei seng,bryan,kasey and jokong to jurong point ...
ws went home and pang seh me,bryan,kasey and jokong..but we wanted to mug so we went inside jurong point to find a nice condusive place to mug and ...poof there was mos burger...yea etc etc..so later after having no mood to mug we decided to leave after like 30 mins so kasey parted from us cos we went to take 172 home...sleeping and talking about how huanted SJI is lar ...wen we reached lot 1 kenrick was hungry so we went to mac to eat and dan later i decided to be random cos i was bored i told kenrick lets go to find them and mug...initaly it was okie but bryan was feel so sad cos he kena dragged along by us haha so no choice....anyway we were going to tong xiao at the mac....so yea we decided to take the mrt instead lol by them it was like 10 plus liao so wen we reached boon lay...we started to debate on which bus would lead us to our destination ... so yea wen we reached kasey and sherly wen to minni's house to take jacket plus books...so there was this FREAKING NERD WITH SUPER HIGH PANTS HIS NAME WAS LIKE YONG WEE INITALLY HE LOOK VERY NICE ...BUT HE LEFT LIKE 40 MINS LATER AND HE WAS LIKE IRRITATING BUGGER WHO LIKE FREAKING CALLED MINNI MANY TIMES DAN HE LIKE SMS SHERLY ..fuck her...THE WHOLE NIGHT SPAM CALL...I HATE GAYS PLUS TOTALLY AND HE IS A GOOD EXAMPLE
K ANYWAY HE LIKE SCREWWED UP THE WHOLE MOOD TO STUDY K so we slacked awhile....
so yea the whole night we were listening to the same macdonalds thingy that played like 70 times...so dam irritating lar...k so yea like sherly and minni went to have a POWER NAP ? aiyo random lar haha k ...

k so i will skip the rest of the part...and move on to the more exciting parts....
k at like 3 am wen i came back from taking a breather...
we went to the playground near minni's house haha...
k like we sat in a circle on the of one of the huge stuff k dan kenrick told us ghost stories haha funny ehhh....yea so sherly and minni was liek super freaked out ...like totally man...sherly was even talking to herself wahahah...
k so at like 4 plus we decided to go back to the mac and mug so on the way back....minni and sherly were holding hands and skippin back like some innocent kids ...so kasey saw this pink glove on the road...it look freaky...so yea the jus took a glance and carried on skipping so ...BEING THE LENNARD GOH that i am..i wen to pick up the glove and scare minni and sherly by throwing infront of thier face from their back....u should have seen larr MILLION DOLLARS expressions ... k so etc etc i wen to carry on scaring the gals...until like we went back to the mac...tired and sweaty and all....k so soon it was day break ...the dawn of the new day ...so yea we parted from minni and went home......

so went home and slept until like 7 plus....haha..i had a good time frenching my bed..haha will post pictures yea

lennard

i wana jus go back to the place i first met u

2008-05-01T10:20:00.002+08:00

i jus feel so much i need to go back to the place where i first met him
wo hen lei but i jus know through him i m renewed
i wan a touch from him that last foreva....

through my busy schedue i realised that i have neglected my prayer life
i need so much a breath from GOD once more.....
one touch is all i need to bring me through my valleys & dark storms
i love him so much

Dear GOD,
throughout my busy schedue i m so sorrie i have neglected u ... lord u know i love u....i really pray that u take me through this difficult period of exams...i really wana ace this mye ...i don always be at the back i wana be at the front...DAddy i miss my solititude i long to go back and seek your face... i love u so much...i wana be a prayer warrior for u...

lennard

i miss your sweet sweet lips

2008-04-30T17:33:00.003+08:00

hey readers....
i also don know why i update but yes oh well
anyway today was my English paper 1 & 2
i have lots of confidence cos English has always been my A1 subject
yea so anyway before i started on each paper i prayed for wisdom and understanding
but most importantly i prayed that the paper easy....

anyway yes i left the exam hall with confidence leh don know why but very happy anyway i m starting to miss her sweet sweet smile,thirst quecnhing saliva and her soft masmellow lips....everyday i miss u so much...
but its alright now cos once in a while the feeling jus comes back

anyway pls pray for me lar this friday is my cl paper 1&2
cos like cl is my weakest subject but i wana ace it
i don wana keep getting F9 its very irritating

alright i shall go mug now bye
leave u with a nice video
lennard

i m so captivated i love u lord

i'm in love?

2008-04-27T18:20:00.001+08:00

i have been getting loads of comments from all my friends
say that this blog is EMO ...
but it's so totally not lar k....
wen i blog it depends on my mood..
but most of the time i m tired so i'll jus blog for fun
or jus to kill time larr....

anyway yesterday me,kasey,kenrick & Joei at causeway point starbucks to mug
never knew there was a new starbuck at civic plaza
so yea like we started mugging from 9 - 11 cos starbucks had to close
at first we went excitedly..thinking starbuck would have seats but to our shock there
was no seats or table k....so the tired us decided to drag ourselfs down to the mac
dan also even worst it was the worst place to be in to study .... k so the 4 of us

sat outside the mac thinking....dan i was so pissed of i told kenrick lets steal the table from mr.bean but aiyo in the end did not lar...
k so we went up to starbucks again ...but heck lar this time i decide to drag tables and putting them togther....so finally we settled down ....dan kenrick went crazy lar
teling us stuff that made us go crazy....yes but during the whole enitre course of laughin ...kenrick had a motive...which was to...
GET MINNI"S number haha....yes cos i was messagin her the whole night dan kenrick was messaging joey lar haha stupid guy....
dan minni ask kasey is he from gang one ....
i was going crazy larr so dam funny can...
okie i m feeling very bad now
i shall stop blogging
in case kenrick murders me

lennard

i'don wana run away...

2008-04-23T22:22:00.003+08:00

sorrie readers from MIA-ing for such a long time...
something happened to me
yea i really had to dig really deep into my heart...
yea something sort of kind of huge...

but yes my sorrie goes out to all of u
haha thx for visiting my blog even if i never post...
i'll try to post more often k
anyway my mid year exams are next weekk
i m so stressed....
but i know i wont fail...
i don wana pass i wana get A1s
is not by my strength but its GOD's strength
so i m trustin him for my results

anyway yea nothing to say
but my week has been fun ....
yea

i'll leave u to a very nice video
love,
lennard

i don wana leave u....

2008-04-13T09:52:00.004+08:00

i ain't exactly not a single bit..
something happen....
i ain't sad but i m jus not in the right state of mind now...

last night was one of my best night...
i did not wan her to cry .... i loved her so much
from the time we've been together i could never be more happy in my life
u were the sun the moon and the joy of my life...
every moment spent with u was really.....
i know you're not the perfact gal....
but baby gal i aint the perfact guy as well...

last night wen we fought ...
how i wish i could turn back time....
to see your face once more...

but i guess it was really time i let go...
i held on to u so tightly i feel so tight in my chest
i jus can't breath....
every single part of me simple leaves me breathless...
you're the reason for the tear drops on my guitar
hui ling if you're reading this i really hope u get wht u mean...

it was so not easy to write this post to u....
i guessed if i loved u ...its time i let u go
you're the best gal in the world to me....
u brought all the smiles and joy...
your the colour in my life..
the diamond in my eyes...

hui ling i'm so so sorrie for not being the best guy and the worst jerk...
i love u so much i jus can't tell u how much i trust u

emotions: tears...

lennard

i need us so much baby...

2008-04-04T18:58:00.002+08:00

i m so tired Physically i m emotionally drained....
i m jus too tired to even do my hw...
i feel so empty inside me....

anyway today school was fairly okie lar...
except that we had a chinese test...which was really stupid lar
so last minute...
the rest was alrighty....normal...

okie i m tired i go rest now...
lennard

current emotions: EMo

i love u?? do i?

2008-04-03T19:36:00.002+08:00

hey ppl.....
u know i found out the readership only my blog is slowly dropping...
cos i m not posting....pai seh

anyway i went to collect my retainers today at outram....
so i went there like a good boy....and i reached 5 mins early k
haha anyway my top retainers is screwwed up so yes my doctor is going to make another one for me....

yes anyway next monday is my oral exmas....
gosh i m feelinbg the stress and the inmerse pressure....
wen the tough gets going, the going goes shopping :)
whahaa okie lar random again

anyway yes tomorro at 2.30 i will have dragon boat training wahaha...excited...
well readers that be it for now...

love lennard

hello..im so super tired

2008-03-26T23:28:00.006+08:00

hi faithful reader,
okie okie....i have decided to blog again....
well since alot of ppl ave been asking me to update
plus u get pissed off if u keep seeing the same post ....
so to not lose the viewer-ship....the great one have decided to blog ....wahaha

anyway yes last week was easter....
which also means dam BUSY lar.....apart from coming home late
doing cell group gifts till late in the night,picking up kids very early in the morning,morning calls,serving,.....
yea this has practically been my schedue lar.....
anyway from friday,sat and sunday....
i have been drinking coffea bean and tea leaf
which also costs $$ haha but yea ...
i'am pround to say i have tired almost every drink....haha
but the nicest is :triple shot expresso caramel late (extra hot)
wah it dam shiok larrr....not bitter but super nice

anyway yea the cell group att was really very good....
i wana thank my group members ....haha for bringing 7 friends....
of which 3 got saved....anyway i m thinkin of taking a break as a coc liao...
been very tired all day long my activites and jam pack lar.....

hey all anyway i will be water batised this week on the 29th of march pls do come down and support me yea....

anyway here are the pic of the jet ski

yea super excited tomorro i m removing my braces...like
finally after sooooooo long....

okie going to sleep now...
good nite

lennard

hungry ...hungry..

2008-03-10T14:22:00.014+08:00

hey all, watsup...?
hope u'll are feeling super and high...
yes in a few hours time i will be away on my holiday with my family
actually i m quite excited...
cos if really time for us as a family to come together to relax and play hard..
no i wont be going to hongkong cos the flight was full
so yes we are still going holiday but no hongkong...

yes so sorrie for not blogging for uber long time...yes really sorrie
i know how annyoing it is for me to not update my blog.....
so many ppl have been complaining....

so heere i m so faithful...haha
anyway i feel that last week pastor preached a great message
the preached about "servanthood"
i was so deeply impacted by the message....

oh yea anyway last week on the 5/03/08
me,chuan teng,keith & viven we all went to eat at soul garden....only $60(15 per pax)
surpriseingly cheap but the food was okie okie only lar....
here are some pictures of us eating

this was our nice food....until

i added ice cream..haha

anyway so here is our reciept

yea so anyway on the 6/03/08
i went to eat steamboat with my mom's exective friends....
by the way my mom is an executive so we hardly see each other cos she is always very busy...
yea so we eat at coco resturant at taka level 4
my mom's friends booked two private rooms haha....
its was really very expensive lar....30+++ lehh....haha
anyway the food was really great lar...but it was alos very fun
nice but too bad never took any pictures...but yes i reached home around 11.30
with school on the next day haha....

yes anyway also my biathlon pictures are out....

haha so many pictures...lol
anyway yea i m gona pack my luggage now
bye ppl

lennard

finally...can

2008-02-29T19:01:00.014+08:00

she is still angry wif me and like she still don wana talk to me...
maybe its time to sweet talk her haha

anyway now i m botak like seriously
i went to get my hair cut jus now....
the person was like ...ehh boy u serious anot..
i was like yes yes yes....and lets get on with it hhaa....
yes but she kept my tail and frindge haha....sexy hair

anyway on the 27th feb 2008
some bo liao boys like me went to eat at sakae again....
seriously we go there more dan 3 times per month...

yes we made the waiteress very luan....cos we were almost ordering the whole menu...
nice but haha eveytime we eat like retards haha...
anyway we got the worst seats....but its alright lar
considering 7 ppl seating together...
some fat and thin haha......
so we ate buffet and yes the bill came out to $122.30
haha cool huh....

anyway i took pictures.. haha

and thats my soft shell crab....

i like this shot

i also why i gave this act cute face..??

haha yes its hell loads of pictures lar haha anyway yes....march i will be going for hoilday haha...

yes and here is my noisy class super fuggly

yea and also this is the group pictures...
cheers if you're not inside...you're not cool we are cool

we're sexy people

too bad pm arul was here ...if not we are a complete family...

anyway cheers for looking at the pics
have a good day
lennard

why why oh why?

2008-02-24T22:33:00.005+08:00

i m so lazy now...jus woke up
i miss so many things....
but most importantly the camp....

i really wana build my life on these principles ....
there is no failure, only learning experiences
choices have consequences
if i cant, then i must, there is always a way

no more
and

did i really find my identity??
at least i did not regret going for the camp....
i m like missin the activites and the sleeping area......
the super nice bed and the freezing air con....

anyway i took pictures from sam's blog haha

not gay or wht but i think he is hot...i must be like him

i think hui sin is hot lar minus the 2 act cute girls...all cmi

i'm normal they are not

group picture ahaha

maybe that all...yea
lennard

happy happy happie...:)

2008-02-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

hi people i just came back...
sup[er happy lar....
i guess i really like the camp alot....
there i really had the chance to bond with my classmaes
and also to get to know each one better....

anyway i was the best camper ...yip]py
haha i was also a platoon mentor woooo...fun can
haha sorrie if i really tortured u guys...i love u all loads haha
anyway hui sin and arul did a really good job as our instructor...
they really pushed us and motivated us to step out of our comfort zone...
i really wana thx all the teachers who took time to plan for this camp
the thing i like most was the slippery slope haha super wet an]d fun...
i guess we all had fun haha teacher sprayed water on me haha cos i sprayed her ....
haha i m starting to miss the camp.....everyday is jam pack woth fun filled activites

anyway i really wana thx my classmates for trusting in me as a leader ...
everyone in my heart is the best camper.....our hearts beat together as one now...

haha i will go find the photos we took and yes i will surely post them ....

good nite sexy ppl reading my blog

bye bye...

2008-02-19T19:21:00.002+08:00

in a few hours time i will be going for a camp....
yea i still got so many things in my heart...
She still angry with me...aiyoo

anyway i was suprised how many ppl view my blog...
but oh well....anyway i like hungry now...
bye bye i shall go buy food...
will blog wen i m back...

lennard

...no mood??

2008-02-18T16:56:00.003+08:00

some stuff happened between me and her....
i did something so dam stupid....dam it...
she now very disappointed in me....

aiya anyway i m gona make up for it...
yes anyway yesterday was my biathlon...
now my legs are hurting....

i need to go back to my place of solititude

hello.....i m like happy

2008-02-15T15:14:00.002+08:00

hello readers..
since i have time...i might as well blog rite...
anyway it i should blog more often lar...
and also like be positive...cos like loads of ppl ...
say my blog is emo and like does not suit me so yes......

anyway as u guys now yesterday was like valentines day....woooo(screams & shout)
yea i was like askin ***** out but....yes she finally aggreeed to go out with me haha
dan okie i went home...called someone to follow me....

i seriously did not plan for anything larrr....
so yes i met her at plaza sing's swensen like abt 4 plus.....
initally we were suppose to meet her and her 2 friends at starbuck but she don wan..
so yes we were like kind of late can.....so yes
were took 190 to ps so like on the way we passed by scgs haha dan i thought of smuffs
that cute little blue thingy.....stu[id lar...

anwyay yes after we alighted we went to starbucks ...go out drink dan went to meet her
haha dan like after we waited fro them to finsh their food
after they paid up we walked around...her friends went to buy something from daiso...
walked until like 6 plus dan like i made*** cancel his tution haha....

yar dan later **** talked to me so i jus went up to get her something....bought her a bear plus rose....
haha i meet up with them at ice monster?
yar someone gave the excuse that i was in the toilet having stomachach and the toilet was having a long queue haha ...jus to buy time...

anyway way she was like quite shock ...yes
.....long story short.....
i ps kenrick and i wen to send her to her bus stop waited for the bus to come....
she like did npt wan me to send her back....some reasons..

anyway yar after i got home we chatted ....
dan she asked me to go shower.
okie shower finish dan we chatted again.....

yes dan she was like hungry....
okie dan tired and she went to sleep

haha dan this morning she called me to wake up haha...i love her so much can....

anyway peace out
lennard

?

take me AWAy...

2008-02-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

its been so long sinced i blogged...
so sorrie but i have hardly anytime now a days...

anyway lots of things happened this few weeks...
just yesterday something ...like happened....(big fight with sis)
so i needed to cool of so i jus stayed over at kenrick's house...

i reached his house at 12.45 ...cos i walked...
anyway i had to talk to a few ppl....one the way to kenrick's house...
i walked into the park....i told GOD i really needed him .....
so wen i reached ken house i was almost cooled down....

i shall not say wht happen but ...
yes so i stayed over at his house we slept at around 1.30 cos we were talking
now i know some of kenrick's secrets....but i wont say....
yes so i was kind of having mixed emotions while lying of the bed dan mr ken was happyly playing his sims 2....

i feel like kenrick,lynn,jem are always with me wen i m down or happy....
my friends in school ...i cant even trust them...
call them out...give excuse...if not say mother don let...
how to depend on them??..aiyoo

anyway now my dad wants the com so yes i m going off liao....but still
happy chinese new year to one and all....

lennard

maybe i should...

2008-02-05T19:12:00.000+08:00

i m so tired....like spiritually drained...
i jus don know why i get hurt so easily...
but maybe its jus me...

i feel this really help me....i was listening to wroship songs,....suddently i jus got a word...
"it not how far we have come, it abt how much we have gone thru...yes we can look back but in the end we should not go back to the old us...we are the given the ability to touch heaven and change lives "

i really don know wht this means to u but it really touched my heart...
in times like this ...we should never give up..
i jus feel that in due season...
lynn and pastor will raise up a generation of cgls that will take the market place by storm...to be a world shaker history maker
be it in the pillars of education...

every time i worship i will always pray for one touch..jus one touch...
i really love to go back everyday after i m tired.....to the place of SOLITUDE..
quiet and peacefull moments....i can never ask for more....
i need GOD more than ever..
so hungry for him....
i wana press on ...
i really wana stay here with him

I STAND ALONE
BEFORE YOUR THRONE
MY SOUL LAID BARE AS I COME UNDONE
YOU'RE REACHING IN
INTO MY HEART
YOUR LIGHT HAS FILLED MY DARKEST PARTS

DRAW ME NEAR TO YOUR THRONE
WITH ANGELS ALL AROUND CRYING OUT
TOUCH MY LIPS WITH YOUR FIRE
IN YOUR GLORY MAY I BE FOUND
I WANNA STAY
I WANNA STAY HERE WITH YOU

love lennard

so fast?

2008-02-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

jus came back from reunion dinner...(mom's side)
like dam tired lol....sleepy..
i need to return to my solititude...time alone...

i wana spend time wif GOD alone....
jus him and me alone .....
maybe i m jus to strict with my members & friends....

i really need to let go of so many unsettled things in my life....
so many ppl asked me why i m emo??
like no answer lehhhh

guessed i invested my laughter in someone...
i m longing jus to see your power....

anyway here are some pic i took at sakae sushi....i eat it two times in month
if i m not wrong it should be wed

enjoy the pic...cheers
lennard

in an failed attempt to act cute..*_-

even worst...

i'm so innocent

dam gay

wht if...

2008-01-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

hi guys....
my love goes out to all who prayed for my hand....
its getting better but now i m having cough....
my throat is so cold....jus took the medicine...so sleepy

i was pondering our some stuff jus now....
i was really in the mood to worship....i jus love being in the holy holys....
i know that my DADDy loves me....

last night pastor preached a word...
he sayed t stay connected....
TOUCHING HEAVEN, CHANGING LIVES...
i m really gona start feeding on that word....

anyway we lost today to kraji...5 nil...sad lar...
could not play....so sian....
anyway never got to see the st john gal....
aiya sadded haha

i guess i will end here before i get too sleepy

lennard

ahhhh i fell down and my hand is injuryed....

2008-01-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

quite happy and sad now.....
mixed emotions...
super high....

anyway my hand now is like dam pain...
full of blood & i think its fractured....

pls pray for me.....i got a match against kranji this wed.....
pls pray for a speedy recovery....
i really wana play....if i don get well i cannot play...

anyway we won today....yeaa
so teacher treat us bottle drinks...
happy....

but anyway i fell because i was chasing my stupid Junior ...
dan i failed to see some chain dan......
ping....pang ...bong.....ouch...
i fell very painful my right hand ...for a minute i cound not move or even hold my spects.....i was so scared....i jus could not move....
but lucky my leg was not hurt and my watch...which was a gift was not damaged...

anyway i was told to go to the general office to get first aid....
okie jus go.....went inside ask for the first aid box.....
walk out....dan my jounior went to see wht can use....
but lucky my kranji friend was there and also thank GOD that there were some
St'john's ppl yar so one really hot girl came and help me put the dressing...

super funny lar....not pain but she was pouring some pink liquid...i was going crazy cos she was like....aiya don know jus pour....wahha super funny....
but she was smoking hot.....was temptered to ask her number but cos so many ppl i decided to ask this wendesday....and yar i also saw the hot kranji badminton gal jus now....haha i can get her number her coach is my coach...yippy...

ouch now my hand hurts....tata ppl
lennard

ever had this feelin ...where you're so super high and u jus go retarded

2008-01-23T20:19:00.000+08:00

hi all...i m blogging again wahaha

nth much to say lar ....
i love badminton...

love,lennard

enjoy this video

i feel so sad so disheartened...

2008-01-21T18:18:00.000+08:00

i lost my singles match today...
my heart broke....i feel so disheartened...
i was the only one who lost today.....
i was so nervous.....
i need peace in my heart

today before my match i was praying....
i told him to give me an easy opponent ...
maybe i was not specific....i lost ...
after the match coach talked to me....
i felt like i had let him down and my other team mates....
i was so pissed i jus scolded vulgar words.....i jus could not take it....
i m cracking...i need herrr so muchh

i was to temptered to ask one girl's number.....
jus so bored.....guess i will end here
before my post gets boring...

lennard

i really need to find my own SOLITUDE...

2008-01-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

i felt the peace of GOD....
so touch.....i don wana leave...
but i was so tired,so sleepy.....

today after service....trained
was standing alone ....
was looking at things....
was really very emo...
kenrick started talking abt PAnya
i jus wanted to go....
i jus could not let go

dam i need my secret place....i jus wana spent time a long time worshipping
today pastor preached on faith...i was so lost in though
really really searched my heart...i wanted to pour it out....
i m struggling so much....

John21
"do you love Me, feed My lambs."
"do you love Me, tend My sheep."
"do you love Me, feed My sheep."

i feel so convicted.........i love my big daddy GOD so much

i jus don't know...

2008-01-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

i jus came home from my badminton practice...so tired and hungry
...i jus feel so discouraged....i feel so limited....

...i m so hungry now..i cant blog...
no brain juice...

anyway here are the pics of me and chuan and hua at sakae sushi haha...

i need a icebox to keep my heart ...
lennard

i wana pay off my building funds....

2008-01-14T23:01:00.000+08:00

lynn jus called me...jus now to talk abt my building fund....
i really needa start giving and honor my promises....
especially to GOD....
i don wana procrastinate anymore....i must act on wht i say.....

i jus finished studying....later i m gona revise on my maths...
tomorro is the start of my trainin.....
i m so tired....vexed....

i like a rubber band....stretched ....pulled to my max....
but dan somehow....someone would jus add more rubber in me....to increase my capacity...

i told myself i wont get a girlfriend until i m done with my O levels...
but dan..who knows....

i m so lazy now.....
should i study??

lennard

i wana start runnin.....pushing the limits...stretching my faith and tolerant levels

2008-01-13T22:23:00.002+08:00

todays service was abt forgiveness......
i really had to reflect into my life.....
but today i jus release every hurt and jus forgive so many people...
i feel so tired,vexed,stresseed out

today i was talking to GOD i jus had so much to talk to him abt....
glad i got it off my chest....

anyway lynn talked to us today....
i really felt that wht she said was a WAKE UP call....
i jus need to jus build relationship instead of rushing people and getting attendance
i m jus so pissed off with myself...

after she talk to us ...chow ask me to learn guitar....
i jus need some time alone....so i jus sat with gary...
but in my heart i was jus so sad and dissappointed.....
i know i could have done so much more.....but i jus did not....

2007 was a year where is learnt how to really step out....grab hold of wht i want and jus take responsibility....and let GOD handle the rest...
i know it ain't up to me to decide....
i'm jus the scriptwriter...

guessed i really needa seat down and think through my smater goal card....
i wana plan....i wana see it come to pass...

i think i will end here...

love,
lennard

i wana start runnin.....pushing the limits...streaching

2008-01-13T22:23:00.001+08:00