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10:53 PM




it's been a long time coming has it?
"N" level is just the day after tomorrow ....
its the time where the really cramming mugging begins
i'm stress but i'm not afraid of it ...
Seriously i m just gone do my very best and seriously let GOD handle the rest...
I m faith filled...i trust GOD 10000% seriously....
i know he's gona being me through this season yea....
All this months of preparations it really boils down to this very moment....

The adrenaline is seriously pumping the blood vessels are all go ....
Its time to face the fire....

ANyway yesterday was LYNN"S birthday yea.....
btw the is my cell group leader ...known her for 1225315575959646 years....
yea so had a bbq to celebrate her brithday...it was much fun thought....
thank GOD that chuan teng came....

YEa anyway before i left for the bbq i chatted with BABY for a long time on msn....
haha she grew taller....:)
but yea i still love her...the good news is that she'll be coming back next year in june....but i dont know if i'll still be around in singapore....
but i hope i'll be though ....
its so wateva lar anyway her family knows me....i messaged her mom many times liao...
he cousin and even her uncles in states all know me....HAHA ...
but of cos cos we have been together for 5 years now...

i m totally in her with her ....

anyway she made a video...so yea enjoy ..
i'm off going to mug now have a GOOD DAY

lennard
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3:33 PM




tired as in seriously....
stressed i'm having a headache now...
home alone.....
pretty emo now...
feeling down and low
i jus saw ........

was jus wondering how i could be better to her
maybe to others as well.....
was googling and using myspace ....
i really don't know wht to believe....
i mean i wanna trust her but if i could only.....
kindoff missin her right now....
i mean i love her so much to die for her ....
every night before my eyelids close she's the last time i think of....
looking at her in the picture...means so much ...
5 yrs is not a short time or a long time....
its been a hard journey painful journey of love.....
maybe i should let go now...
i don wana break my heart anymore.....
my hearts bleeding.....


read the email chow sent me ....
i really lost for words......
so many things are happening....i'm lost
God i need a compass.....
some stuff happened on chow's bday.....
been deep in thoughts lately...
was there a reason?..
i don know how to answer myself and the people around me....
could i have been better? should i have gone there?
loneliness lingers right now
i m really stressed out now.....
depression is slipping in .....

anyway i have made up my mind already ...
i have yet to talk to my parents about my decisions......
i really hope and really pray they will give me their full support.....
probably gona be gone soon ?....
after my O levels i wont be coming back anymore....
maybe its time i find a change in environment...
a well deserved getaway...
for the other plan's i'll see when the time comes....
i hope its a right choice
God bless

lennard

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7:55 PM




been away from blogging for quite long already...
i seriously lost touch...no inspirations

but anyway school has been a blast for me everyday...
even thought i have to stay back and rush for my D&T...
but ya know its worth it...someday when i m old i can look back and enjoy my life...
sit down drink Starbucks and relax....

been quite sick lately....
i guess cos of the intense stress i have been getting from my D&t...
coming home around 7 plus to an empty house is quite routine now ...
been really interdependent ever since i was promoted to sec 4
no long the old me but a person who is matured in thinking and actions...
not trying to sing my own praises but ... i think i m happier in the current me...

anyway been thinkin of making my own sermon ... and also do the 40 days fast...
i really feel this is the season to move on to something great ...
to really BREAK THROUGH into the whole new level...
its not good to always stay in the same level...

anyway i m really disappointed and troubled recently...i heard so much
as in are u guys mature enough ? or not at all?
seriously u called me a bitch behind my back during some more to a new friend?
i don care wht u called me man seriously u don be a dog to a new friend...
u are a christian leh...u should be more edifying towards others and your fellow brother
seriously i don care wht u have against me but say it to my face lar....
don be a pussy and shut up when u see me act like u did not say anything lar....
i hate it man....u sink lar loser ... if u have the guts say it to me don jus keep quiet when u see me .. u freaking stepper jus kill yourself lar...
u call yourself a christian but yet u said i m a bitch towards a new friend ?
what the hell are u thinking? u think u dam cool lar is it?
u from CHURCH OF SATAN IS IT ?
u really spoil my mood lar....
u think you're all that but frankly you're not even all that pls....
that a look at yourself in front of a mirror...
u are so immature lar...childish behavior ...
GROW UP LAR seriously ...
i don even wana talk abt u anymore....

yea anyway its been long since i uploaded pictures...
so yea picture updates











enjoy lennard

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