i can't bottle it up anymore........i'm gona break apart.....i love u so much....i don't know wht i have to gif up this time....i really really can't lose u.....i m struggling to see or even talk to u....don't know why m i such a coward....i'm afraid to lose u as a friend.......i jus love u so much.......i cant tell any one how much i love u cos i m afraid you will fine out.....i told ct abt it...he promised not to tell......i m feeling so sad.....i neeed jem i jus wana talk to him........iu feel so comfortable wif him around.....rx is gone i'm all alone in the cell only a few ppl i know...the rest i jus can't connect ....don't know whts going on in my life....i jus cant be strong anymore....how i look outside may not be wht i'm inside......i'm lost ...lost in love.....i cant find away out.....